2012 May 20

Time Management: Remember the "WIN" - What's Important Now?

2012 Jun 30

In July, we came back from Paris (family vacation)

Aug, my husband found blood in stool, it lasted over 2 weeks. And he thought they were hemorrhoids. Later, he went to oncologist and it was said it's colon cancer, the tumor size is about 2.5cm big.

At that time, my son was 11, the surgeon, the chemotherapist, and the radiologist met together, and came up with the surgical protocol that requires 28 times of radiotherapy, and my husband needs to have Pick Line Port done in the body, plus some pills.

2012 Sep 25

I raised the question that "in my view, my husband is the most happiest person amongst all the people in my life, and why he has the cancer but not me? I felt in terms of probability, I had much higher chances to get the cancer but why him. It simply doesn't make sense at all."

2012 Oct 6

Met Michael for his spiritual teaching and life sharing

Explored Chinese medicine, Food(had fear of the inappropriate food), seeked help from the experienced friends, and interested in how the religious faith would help people in that situation.

2013 Jan 25

surgery done. (结肠环纳手术完毕）

术后两周一直在医院很忙，一会儿肠梗阻，一会儿泻不止。

2013 Feb 7

Second surgery of the rectum cancer, need another year of waiting for recovery plus the chemo for 6 months.

2013 Feb 15

Why live? I felt I was stuck.

I felt I didn't even have the freedom to death. I have a kid to care, parents to care, if I went to that direction, that would be heart-broken for them.

I felt my life up to that point, I simply lived for others. If it's for myself, I didn't feel any needs to live.

"You're needed", that's the meaning for living. Because you were needed, you have to love yourself, let the life of "being needed" longer

2013 March

Parents came to Canada.